I deserve

I was working with a client today and as we were talking it became clear that this client had a deep feeling of not deserving. We meditated and sent light to assist in healing this pattern and then did a TRCB session to further release blockages.

Later in the day, this blog post descended and I wrote it down so that we can all work on forgiving ourselves, opening to receive, and remembering that the earth is a school and that we are good and we deserve goodness.

Also, mark your calendar for Sunday December 27th at 7 p.m. ET for our next FREE TRCB Group Healing. (More details coming soon.)

I deserve.

I deserve the goodness of the universe.
I deserve abundance.
I deserve love.
I deserve healing.
I deserve happiness.
I deserve the goodness of the universe.

Take a moment now to affirm: I deserve. I deserve. I deserve.

At the human level, we are flawed and we make mistakes. But at the spiritual level we are innocent, whole and complete. At the spiritual level we deserve life’s goodness.

Take a moment now and forgive yourself for past mistakes.

Understand that you are learning and growing and that we are all learning and growing.

Understand that despite all of your mistakes that you deserve goodness. You deserve all that life wants to bring to you.

And so let go now.

Let go of the thought that you don’t deserve and open to all that is meant for you.

Let go now and step into the life that you have imagined for yourself.

Let go now and accept with grace and appreciation all that is coming your way.

Let go now and remember that you deserve because you are spirit and you are good and you are learning.

The earth is school.
Part of why you have come is to learn and grow.

Don’t be so hard on yourself.
Forgive yourself.

Let go of the past and step into your future with arms wide open.

You deserve.
You are good and you are learning.

Humanly there is reward and punishment, good and bad.
At the spiritual level there is perfection and grace and learning.

There is a divine interconnection between what you are learning and what those around you are learning. Remember to see deeper, see the learning and the lessons.

Forgive yourself and forgive others for everyone is learning and everyone deserves.

Open your arms now to receive the goodness of the universe.

Offer the gift of forgiveness to yourself this holiday season and offer the gift of forgiveness to others.

All are learning and all are growing and all are on a very long journey home.

Remember that you deserve.
So often you strive for a goal with one hand and block it with the other.

Step into your sense of deserving now.
Step into the rememberance of who you really are.

Remember that the earth is a school and that you have come to learn and grow.

Remember that no one expected you to be perfect.

You are growing and learning and it is all okay.

You deserve. You deserve. You deserve.

Open yourself up to the good of the universe and let it rain down on you.

Listen deeply and you will know what to do.
The way forward will be made clear.

Open to receive and remember that you deserve the goodness that is coming your way.

Affirm frequently:

I am open to receive.
I am open to receive.

I deserve.
I deserve.
I deserve.

Happy Holidays Everyone and Happy New Year too. Thank you for being part of my TRCB community.


~Hayley Mermelstein

Love me, even though I can’t love you back.

I was meditating this morning and as I was just about to conclude, I heard a friend’s voice (in my mind) say to me: “Love me, even though I can’t love you back.”

This particular friend has been distant and aloof with me and it’s been a challenge to know how to be in relation to her.

And even though I’m not sure yet of what actions to take externally, her words helped me to remember to stay loving inside of myself, despite the discord that lies between us.

Her words also inspired the following blog post, that i thought I’d share with all of you.

Love me, even though I can’t love you back.

Sometimes in our lives there are people who choose not to love us or simply can’t love us (or be loving toward us), because of where they are at inside of themselves. Rather than take this personally and be offended and hurt, can we find the place in ourselves that can remain loving, even in the face of others anger or apathy or indifference or inconsiderate behaviour?

This is one of the great challenges set before each one of us, to learn to love those who can’t love us back.

In this crazy world of ours this is no easy task, and we are at best very imperfect at it. But if we are truly to open our hearts then we must aspire to love, not only those who love and approve of us, but also those who are cold, or angry, or arrogant, or aloof, or those who feel superior to us as well.

So, let this be your challenge today, to learn to keep your heart open even in the face of those who can’t love you back. This, of course, does not mean you need to put yourself in harms way, sometimes, its best to love others from afar.

Take a moment now and direct love towards someone who can’t love you back.


I love you.
I love you.

I value you.
I value you.

You are learning and you are growing.
Everyone is learning and everyone is growing.

I appreciate you.
I appreciate you.

I forgive you.
I forgive you.

I love you.
I love you.

Be aware of how this softens your heart. Be aware of how this shifts your energy.

Let this be your challenge today: to send love to someone who doesn’t treat you well or can’t (at this time) love you back.

As you grow in your ability to do this, your heart chakra will open and you will be able to manifest more of your best self.

After you have opened your heart you can ask: Given what is, what is the loving thing to do? You can listen deeply within and let your inner wisdom guide you in right relation.

Sometimes it is loving to love from afar and sometimes it is loving to love up close. Sometimes it is loving to say yes and sometimes it is loving to say no. Sometimes it is loving to give other people the space that they need. Sometimes it is loving to come close. Sometimes it is loving to give other people freedom to choose and not force our own will or desires on them. Sometimes its loving to value ourselves enough to walk away. Sometimes its loving to let other people just be. Sometimes its loving to ask for more. Sometimes its loving to ask for less. Sometimes its loving to challenge the status quo. Sometimes its loving to express and sometimes its loving to remain silent.

The individual attunement will vary. It is through deep listening that we will know how to best express the love that is in our hearts.

But for today, simply work on opening your heart chakra. Do this for yourself, so that you can be the best that you can be. Be aware of how this impacts your life and your manifestation.

Ask yourself:

What changes as you become a more loving person?
What percentage of your day can you stay in love?
Can you appreciate this adversary in your life for teaching you how to love in a deeper way?
What else can you appreciate about this person?
What else are you learning from this challenge?

You can simplify the affirmation I shared above by simply stating:

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.

You can silently say this to yourself and silently say it to others all day long.

Be aware of what impact this has on you and your relationships.

Some relationships may improve with this affirmation of love, and some, which are no longer appropriate for you, may find their good elsewhere. Sometimes nothing will change externally but your own internal environment will be transformed.

One thing we can say for sure, is that the affirmation, I love you, will raise your own vibration and help you to bring your best self forward more and more. Be aware of the far reaching impact this can have on your health, your relationships and on your own life as well.

Hayley Mermelstein

P.S. We will be having our monthly free TRCB teleclass this Sunday, November 29th at 7 p.m. This is a great opportunity to join with a group for the purpose of balancing your chakras and bringing your best self forward more and more.

To join our call, simply call: 413-259-8048 at 6:55 or so, on Sunday evening. The lines will be muted, so all you need to do is sit back and relax and allow the opening meditation and TRCB healing to wash over you and bring you whatever healing and transformation you need at this time. Feel free to forward this email to a friend in need as well.

I look forward to joining you on the call!

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Imperfect Hearts

Sometimes it is hard to see the perfection beneath the humanity.
Sometimes it is hard to see the beauty that lies within.

But I will aspire to see the true you.

The you beneath the gruff and the huff.
The you beneath the defensiveness.

I love you with an imperfect heart.

But I will aspire to remember that you are beautiful and you that are good and that you are learning and that you are afraid and that you are wounded, just like everyone else.

I love you with an imperfect heart.

But I will aspire to know that at your core you mean well, and that you want to be loving and be loved, and that you want to be a radiant being upon the earth.

I love you with an imperfect heart.

But I will aspire, to remember who I am and how I want to be in the world, and to see your imperfections with a kind eye and a gentle heart.

I love you with an imperfect heart and that is okay, because we are all learning and we are all growing and we are all perfection becoming more perfect.

I love you with an imperfect heart.

~Hayley Mermelstein

P.S. Have a nice Thanksgiving everyone.

Also, we are having our FREE TRCB TELECLASS the last Sunday of every month. Be sure to join us on the call Sunday November 29th, 2015 at 7 p.m. I’ll send out call in information next Saturday!

How Can I Help?

I was meditating Friday morning and this short prayer (question) started going through my head. I wrote it down but wasn’t planning on sending it since it seemed sort of personal to me. But in light of everything going on in our world I decided I would share it in case it offers some inspiration to you as well.

How may I help?

How can I offer a greater contribution?
How can I share my work in a bigger way?
How can I assist in raising consciousness?

How may I help?

How can I help others more while remaining true to myself?
How can I offer more without getting taken advantage of?
How can I help others with out overstepping or intruding?

How may I help?

What do I need to let go of so that I may step into greater contribution?

How may I help?

Spirit please use me for your highest good.

There is so much suffering here on earth and so much to learn as well.

Use me as an agent of your love.

Help me to raise my own consciousness so that I may do what I’ve come here to do.

Help me to raise consciousness so that we can all make choices that are in alignment of our highest good.

Help me to raise consciousness on the planet so that there can be greater peace and on the earth.

Help me to offer my full contribution.
Show me the way.

May I be a vehicle for the light.

Show me how I can help.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I’m good, right?

He was 5 years old and is one of the loves of my life. We were playing together outside on a hot summer day while his 4 years old sister tried fruitlessly to carry her bucket of water to some unknown destination.

I say to the 5 year old, maybe we should go help your sister, it looks like she having trouble carrying her bucket. I say it in such a way to help him feel like the big boy that I know he wants to be.

And as we are walking to meet her, he stops, turns to me and asks in the most sincere of voices, “I’m good, right”.

And it’s a real question, and I know that it is an important moment.

And, I turn and I look him in the eyes and I say, yes, you are very good. And he looks at me and smiles and nods, as if to say, I thought so, I just needed to make sure. And I see him take my words in and he is relieved.

But his question hits me hard because I see a five year old who is teetering on the edge of losing the knowing that he is good, and although my answer temporarily reassures him, I know it won’t be enough to battle the forces that will be coming: the well meaning but over worked teachers, sleep deprived parents, young friends and adversaries, not to mention societal expectations.

But what can I do in this moment but tell him he is good?

Five years pass and that little boy is 10 years old now and I can tell he is forgetting what he once knew, and I want to whisper in his ear: You are good. You are good. Don’t forget, you are good.

But I can’t quite yet, because he is running off to baseball or basketball or playing with the other 10 year old neighborhood kids or teasing his sister or playing a video game or doing his homework.

But I will bide my time and wait for the right moment when I can remind him in some 10 year old appropriate way that he is good and that he is learning and that he is only 10, and it is okay to make mistakes and it is okay to not know and it is okay to cry and it is okay, it’s all okay.

But I can’t say it to him quite yet.

But I can say it here, to the 10 year old in all of us, who perhaps has forgotten what we once knew.

I could say:

Don’t forget that you once knew you were good. Before the conditioning and the tired voices all around you told you otherwise.

Don’t forget that it is okay to make mistakes, and its okay not to know, and it is okay not to be sure, and it’s okay to cry and we are all like children until we reach enlightenment.

Don’t forget that you have greatness in you, too.

Don’t forget that you are perfection becoming more perfect.

Don’t forget. Don’t forget.

Remember who you truly are.

Remember that you are good and you are learning.

Remember that the earth is a school.

And that you came to grow and to learn and to share and serve and to enjoy.

Don’t be so hard on yourself.

Forgive yourself.

It’s all okay.

I love you.

Don’t forget. Don’t forget.

And maybe, just maybe, the 10 year old inside of all will, at long last, remember what has been forgotten.


I was talking recently with a friend in order to better understand what was going on in our relationship. As we talked I realized that I would not find clarity by talking with this person because she wasn’t being honest with herself.

I meditated on the situation when I returned home and received the following message on self honesty.

I thought I’d share it here, for its a good reminder that sometimes we just need to go into ourselves to get clear, rather than look for clarity outside of ourselves. (Though, of course, at other times, talking things out with another person can be enormously helpful!).


If someone is not honest with themselves then they will not be able to be honest with you.

Do not take this personally.

Just be aware that they are not capable of being self honest at this time.

At times, you will not be able to find clarity by talking to another.

At times, you must go inward and find clarity by becoming clear within yourself.

Become clear within yourself and then carry out what you know to be true.

If you are not certain, then carry out, to the best of your ability, what you believe to be true.

Stand in your conviction but remain open.

As you live your life from this place of convinction and openness, you will gradually move into a deeper knowing about what is right for you.

Step into your clarity now, you know more than you realize.

Do not look to others to show you the way.

You are the way.

Allow your own clarity to guide you.

Express when you are guided to express, but remain true to your own perceptions and knowing.

Others my profess clarity but actually be confused.

Listen deeply to your own inner knowing and you will be guided in the path that is right for you.

Do not let the confusion of others throw you from your path.

Stay open.

Stay true.

But in the end listen deeply to your own inner wisdom.

As you do, the way forward will unfold.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Let peace begin with me.

Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace.  Where there is hatred, let me sow love.
– St. Francis of Assisi

My friend’s 11 year old daughter, who I adore, got bullied at school this past week and was injured in a fight that ensued. I don’t know all the details, but I know that it’s hard to watch the real world encroach on this young girl’s childhood. I know, of course, that there are lessons to be learned all around. And I hold this in light. But more than anything else, the main thought that rushes through my head is:

“Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me.”

How can we have a peaceful world when we have such violence and anger in our hearts?

How can the world transform when we can’t get along with our neighbors?

What if the violence in our world is a reflection of the violence in our hearts?

What if in attending to our own gardens we really can affect change?

What if the most effective way to create peace is to start with ourselves, our own hearts and our own minds?

I don’t propose to have any of the answers. I’m just a person trying to figure it out too. It’s ironic in a way, wars rage all around, but it is an incident with a child I personally love with that inspires me to attend to my own garden in a way nothing else has.

Can I be a more loving person?
Can I find more compassion for my fellow man?
Can I love and forgive myself more?
Can I love and forgive others?
Can I create more peace within myself?
Can I create a ripple affect that positively influences the world?

Yes, of course, there is outward action to be taken: phone calls to be made, principles to be talked with, parent meetings, etc..etc.. And these are all very important.

But energetically, the place that we have the most control is in our own hearts and minds.

What is the ripple effect that our own anger and animosity, and lack of forgiveness creates out in the world? What if everything out there really is an outward manifestation of our own hearts and souls?

And so with this in mind, and in an effort to heal my own soul, I affirm:

I am filled with peace.
I am filled with peace.

I love and care for myself and
I love and care for others.

I practice compassion.
I practice compassion.

I am filled with peace.
I am filled with peace.

What is my vibrational contribution?

Do I contribute love?
Do I contribute compassion?
Do I contribute balance?
Do I contribute peace?
Do I contribute forgiveness?

What are the far reaching ramifications of this?

Can I stay compassionate in the face of anger?
Can I stay compassionate in the face of ignorance?

Can I stay balanced in the face of violence?
Can I contribute peace in the face of war?
Can I clean up my own act so that I can an agent for change?

If we wish to see a change in this world we must in the words of Gandhi: “be the change we wish to see.”

And so, let peace begin with me.

Let me offer forgiveness in the face of offense.
Let me offer compassion in the face of anger.
Let me offer patience in the face of ignorance.

May my energetic contribution be one of compassion, love, sincerity, and forgiveness.

I know that I will be tested.
I know that I will falter.
I know that this will be a learning process for me and that I will fall.

But let me make the commitment for the sake of all the children in the world who suffer, for the sake of all the young soldiers at war, for the sake of women who are exposed to violence every day, and for the sake of men who live in fear of other men or other women.

Let me make the commitment to be the change I wish to see.

May I offer love to those who can’t offer love to me.
May I offer compassion to those who are unkind.
May I offer a sincere heart to those who are lost.

May I be the change I wish to see.

This is my commitment.
This is my prayer.
This is my journey.
This is my path.

May peace exist on earth, and may it begin with me.

~Hayley Mermelstein

P.S. For those that are interested we will be having our Free monthly group healing teleclass this evening at 7 p.m. Its a good opportunity to heal our own souls and create a ripple of peace to help heal our planet. Join us if you can.

Just call in at: 413-259-8048.

Give yourself what you seek from others.

I-value-myself-II’ve been thinking a lot this week about the power of loving and forgiving ourselves. So often, we look to others for love, forgiveness, appreciation, and acceptance. What if instead of looking to others for these qualities we focused instead on giving them to ourselves? What if as we treated ourselves better, this impacted how others treated us? What if everyone out there is simply a mirror of how we treat ourselves?

For this week focus on being kinder to yourself. Focus on forgiving yourself, loving yourself, valuing yourself and accepting yourself.

To assist us all with this endeavor, I wrote a chakra balancing sequence that you can repeat to yourself. (I like to start my day with a Tong Ren Chakra Balancing sequence.)

If you have a Tong Ren doll and hammer you can tap on the chakras of the doll as you repeat the following affirmations. If you don’t have a doll and hammer, than simply repeat the following affirmations to yourself:

Tong Ren Chakra Balancing sequence:

Crown: I am special and we are all special.

Third Eye: I am a wise old soul and I step into my wisdom now.

Throat: I value myself.

Heart: I forgive myself. I love myself. I appreciate myself.

Solar Plexus: I accept myself completely.

Identity: I am whole and complete with in myself.

Base: I am spirit, therefore, I am safe.

Take a moment now and really take this in. Take a moment to really appreciate yourself. Take a moment to forgive yourself. Take a moment to remember that we are all learning and growing and that we all make mistakes. Take a moment to accept your strengths and weaknesses. Take a moment to value yourself.

Anytime an issue arises this week within yourself or In the world around you, take it as a cue and a reminder to love, value, appreciate, accept and forgive yourself. Practice seeing everything out there as an invitation for greater self love and self healing. Be aware of how this impacts your world.

So often, we look to others to love and appreciate us. And while external validation is always nice, its even better if we can learn to give ourselves the love and kindness that we seek.

What healing could happen in your body this week if you really forgave yourself for everything?

What transformation could occur is you really valued and appreciated yourself?

What would change if you finally accepted what seemed unacceptable?

What opportunities could open if we all learned to love ourselves more completely?

These are big challenges that we can all work on together.

For a short cut, simply pick one of the above affirmations and repeat it to yourself through out your day.

For example, if you are working on self love you could simply repeat: I love myself. I love myself. I love myself.

If you are looking for greater forgiveness you could repeat: I forgive myself. I forgive myself. I forgive myself.

If you desire greater self-acceptance, you could affirm: I accept myself completely. I accept myself completely. I accept myself completely.

Repeat what ever affirmation you choose frequently through out your day. For it is through repetition and consistency that we begin to change and elevate the way we think and feel about ourselves and others.

Have a good week everyone!

Also, if you’d like greater support, feel free to join us on our free Tong Ren Chakra Balancing group healing that is happening this Sunday, October 25th at 7 p.m. E.T. The number for the call is: 413-259-8048. We will be focusing on cultivating greater self love and acceptance. By joining together as a group we can heal and transform in powerful ways. I look forward on working on our collective healing together!

~Hayley Mermelstein

Learn to listen within.

There are those that insist that if you are to be a true writer you must write everyday.

And then there are those who insist that if you are to be a true writer you must wait until the spirit moves you.

And there are those that insist that you must not eat meat.

And there are those that insist that you must eat meat if you are to be healthy.

There are those that insist that you must say yes and
There are those that insist that you must say no.

There are studies that prove this.
And studies that say this is absolutely not so.

In the end we must learn to quiet all the external voices and opinions so that we may hear the small, still, quiet voice within that is always guiding us.

All the experts disagree and
What is gospel one minute is heresy the next.

Consider the opinions of others, but in the end do what resonates with your own inner being.

We are each unique and what we need varies.

For one person writing everyday perfects their art, and for another, writing when the spirit moves them is what allows their creativity to flourish.

Take full responsibility for your life, and do not be overly influenced by the opinions of others, even experts.

Come to know yourself and come to listen to your own inner spirit which has a wisdom that can guide you.

Listen deeply and the way will be revealed.

I am not your way home.

I took this week off from work to meditate and regroup a bit. After spending some time in quiet, this poem arose to the surface. Its been helpful for me to read and reread as a reminder to move more deeply into acceptance. Thought I’d share it with you in case it might be helpful.

Also, we will be having another free group meditation and group healing the last Sunday of October (October 25th) from 7-7:45 pm E.T. Be sure to mark your calendar if you are interested and keep an eye out for the reminders the weekend before.

I am not your way home.

And sometimes the people around us cannot be who we want them to be, because it is not who they are.

Sometimes the people around us cannot meet our expectations, for it is simply not where they are at yet, or the role they are meant to play in our lives.

Live and let live.

Let others be who and where they are.

Be deeply accepting now.

Do not look to others to be something that they are not.

Let go now and sit empty for a time.

Let go now and allow your life to unfold.

Let go now and allow life to bring the right people into your life.

Eventually, you will find your way home.

~Hayley Mermelstein