I am open to receive

Often times there is something in our lives that we desire such as greater financial abundance or greater love. But, deep down inside of ourselves we feel we don’t deserve that which we are seeking. This feeling of not deserving or not being good enough creates a scism in our bodies and mind where we have our foot on the gas and we have our other foot on the brake all at the same time. Years go by and we wonder why we feel so stuck.

It can be helpful when you find yourself in such a pattern to work deeply on self love, self forgiveness and feeling worthy to receive. So often the places in our lives where we feel stuck come down to a self love issue. It can be helpful to ask ourselves what might change in our lives if we loved ourselves more? What might we do differently? Would we speak up more? Would we speak up less? Would we be kinder and more forgiving towards ourselves? What blockages in our bodies and minds and life would be released if we truly forgave ourselves and felt worthy to receive?

We work frequently with this issue in our meditation classes and group healings and I thought I’d share a brief meditation/affirmation on the topic with all of you.

I love myself.
I love myself.

I forgive myself.
I forgive myself.

I let myself off the hook.
I stop punishing myself.

I offer myself love and kindness.
I offer myself love and kindness.

I accept that I am human and have made mistakes.
I allow myself to go from one imperfect activity to the next.

I offer myself love and compassion.
I offer myself love and compassion.

I am spirit.
I am good and
I am learning.

We are all spirit.
We are all good and
We are all learning.

I am spirit and I am learning.
We are all spirit and we are all learning.

The earth is a school and we have all come for learning and growth. Stop being so hard on yourself. Learn to offer yourself love and forgiveness and tolerance and acceptance as you go from one imperfect activity to the next. Do not strive for perfect. Strive for continued growth and learning. Allow yourself to be a student of life and in so doing you will become a teacher. Allow yourself to be filled with humility and in so doing you will step into your greatness.

Step into your greatness now and offer yourself love and compassion.

What might heal in your body if you truly loved and forgave yourself? What might heal in your life if you fully felt worthy to receive.

Affirm now:

I am good and I deserve goodness.
I am good and I am worthy to receive.

I feel so worthy to receive.
I feel so worthy to receive.

I am open to receive.
I am open to receive.

I am open to receive goodness.
I am open to receive love.
I am open to receive abundance.
I am open to receive joy and freedom.
I am open to receive healing and wholeness.
I am open to receive all that life wants to bring to me now.

I take my foot off the brake.
I stop the self punishment.

I instead offer myself the love and compassion I desire from others and in so doing become a beacon of light and love for all.

I love myself.
I forgive myself.

I see my goodness and I know that I deserve goodness.

I am growing in my capacity to love myself.
I am growing in my capacity to forgive myself.
I am growing in my capacity to open to receive.

I am worthy to receive.
I deserve goodness.

We all deserve goodness.

I am open to receive.
I am open to receive.

I am open to the light.
I am open to miracles.
I am open to goodness.
I am open to love.
I am open to abundance.
I am open to healing.
I am open to assistance.
I am open to all that life wants to bring into my world.

So let this be your experiment for the day and the week. How open can you be to receive? How much can you love yourself? How much genuine forgiveness can you cultivate for yourself and others? Take your foot off the brake. Let go of the past and step into the life that awaits you now. Shower yourself with love and kindness and be aware of how this affects your body, your mind, the quality of your day and your life.

If you found this mediation/affirmation helpful and you live in the Amherst area, feel free to join us for our Tong Ren Chakra Balancing group on Monday nights at 7 p.m. or our Meditation class on Thursday nights at 7 p.m.

Email me or click here for more information.

Sincerely,

Hayley Mermelstein

Cultivating Confidence

Hello Everyone,

Just a quick note to let you know that we will be having our TRCB (Tong Ren Chakra Balancing) in person group healing this Monday as usual. Our group will begin at 7 p.m. and goes to 8:30 p.m. It is a wonderful opportunity to join with others to experience the healing power of TRCB for yourself. It’s also a wonderful opportunity to support others in their healing process as well.

As we join together in this way powerful healing energies become available to support each one of us in transcending limiting beliefs and promoting deeper self awareness and healing.

Our group is held at 800 Main Street, Amherst, Ma. (middle door in the front of the building). The group is drop in and all are welcome (whether you are a seasoned regular or new to this practice.) The cost is $15.00.

It’s a powerful evening of healing, transformation, and community.

I look forward to seeing you soon.

For those who can’t attend our group, or for those who want a taste of some of the meditations that arise during the evening I thought i’d share this meditation/affirmation on confidence.

Enjoy!

Confident, Powerful, Beautiful and Radiant

I am confident.
I am powerful.
I am beautiful and
I am radiant.

Take a moment now and allow the vibration of the words to awaken your confidence, power, beauty and radiance.

Affirm once again:

I am confident.
I am powerful.
I am beautiful and
I am radiant.

Connect with that part of you that is confident, powerful, beautiful and radiant. Embody these qualities now as you affirm:

I am confident.
I am powerful.
I am beautiful and
I am radiant.

Feel your confidence. Feel your power. Embody beauty and radiance now.

I embody confidence.
I embody power.
I embody beauty and radiance.

I embody these things and I develop an I can do this attitude.

I can do this.
I can do this.
I can do this.

I can do what I ‘ve come here to do.
I can learn what I’ve come here to learn.
I can achieve what I’ve come here to achieve.

I can do this.
I can do this.
I can do this.

Stand in your power now.
Stand in your confidence.
Stand in your beauty and your radiance and
Stand in your rememberance of who you are.

You can do what you’ve come here to do.
You can learn what you’ve come here to learn.
You can achieve what you’ve come here to achieve.

You can do this.
You can do this

You are not alone.
With spirits help you can do this.

So often we wait until the external conditions of our world are the way we want them to be in order to feel confident or powerful.

What would it be like to connect to our power and our confidence and then see how life begins to show up differently. Let this be your experiement for this day and this week. Embody the attitudes that you wish to feel. Embody the attitudes that you are waiting for the external world to give you permission to feel. Feel the feelings first and then be aware of what shows up differently in your life.

Affirm once again,

I am confident.
I am powerful.
I am beautiful.
I am radiant and
I develop an I can do this attitude.

I can do this.

I am powerful.
I am beautiful
I am radiant.

And I can do this.

I can do this.
I can do this.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Welcoming Rejection

Hello Everyone,

(Sometimes, well most times, I feel rather vulnerable sharing my writing. In fact, I often wonder whether it is even wise to do so. But I push the send button, because I know that we all share the same human experience and are working on many of the same issues in our own ways.

I often have people come up to me and say they feel I wrote a particular blog post just for them. This does comfort me and gives me some reassurance that there is value in sharing some of my writing rather than keeping it all to myself.

I also read once that if you don’t feel a little nauseous before sending out a blog post, that you haven’t been honest enough.

It is in this vein, that i share todays blog with you.)

Welcoming Rejection

I decided to talk to a friend recently about something that was bothering me in our relationship. The conversation took an unexpected turn and ended with her asking me not to contact her again. I had hoped that talking about our connection would bring us closer and instead it severed what was left of an already mangled situation.

Rejection is never pleasant, for any of us. We all have a desire to be liked, to be included, and to be understood.

And yet, I have been taught to welcome rejection and to understand that rejection is one of the ways that life reroutes us and shows us what path is not ours to traverse.

And so, I sit and I ask: What would it be like to welcome this? What would it be like to invite this to the table and surrender to it?

Thoughts swirl: Could I have done something differently? Could I have addressed the situation more gently? Maybe I shouldn’t have brought up the sensitive topic that i did?

I don’t know the answer to those questions. I do know that what is done is done, and that I communicated as honestly and sincerely as I knew how.

And so for now, I begin the process of letting go and I affirm:

I let go.
I let go.

I welcome this situation.
I welcome this situation.

I let go of my resistance to what is.
I let go of my wanting to go down a path that doesn’t appear to be meant for me.

I let go.
I let go.

I am learning to embrace rejection.
Rejection is one of the ways that life communicates with me.

Some paths open and some paths close.

I resist no longer.

I surrender.
I surrender.

I accept.
I accept.

I allow.
I allow.

I welcome what wants to come into my life and allow what wants to go, to go.

I welcome what is.
I let go of my resistance.

I allow those who want to go, to go.
I allow those who are meant to be in my life to come.

I surrender my will.

I surrender.
I surrender.

I let go.
I let go.

i let go.
I let go.

Letting go is a process. I remember a teacher of mine said once that it took her two years of active letting go, to really surrender something that she had wanted.

(And then I hear)

And so do not be discouraged if it takes some time to let go of that which is leaving your life. Be gentle and patient with yourself as your learn to surrender and release that which no longer serves. Accept all that is transpiring and know that when the time is right, new life will sprout form the ashes of what once was. Be patient, be kind. Review what you have allowed to transpire and than rise up stronger than before, more committed to healthy and mutually satisfying relationships. Do not settle for bread crumbs in your relationships. Do not settle for one way streets. Do not settle for lack of care and consideration. Dare to ask for more. Sit empty for a while and allow yourself to be refilled. When the time is right new life will emerge.

Shed the old now. You will find the reciprocity that you seek. Do not cling to that which is no longer meant for you. Instead think upon what it is that you do desire in relationship and allow those that are meant to be in your life to find you.

Chase no longer. Let what wants to go, go.

Welcome the new with open arms.

Remember that each time you have truly let go in the past, something more satisfying and right for your stage of development has found its way to you. Trust in that process. Surrender gladly into the unknown and wait with open arms for the future that beckons you.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Sincerely,

Hayley Mermelstein

Make room for the new

“Do not move on to 2017 without letting go of something significant from 2016, an old idea, label, habit, fear, concern of ego. Let go to free up the white space for something new to enter.” Brendon Burchard.

It is said that nature abhors a vacuum, and that as we let go of worn out conditions, situations, attitudes and even clothing, that we create space for something new to be born.

What will you be letting go of this year as we wind down 2016 and what would you like to be born in its place as we enter this next cycle?

This is a question that we can all contemplate as we begin a new year of growth, service and enjoyment.

It is on this note, that I thought I’d share a poem that I wrote a while back, as I was working on letting go of a friendship in order to make room for something new.

Make room for the new.

And for a long time, it hurt when I bumped into a mutual friend of ours and she ignored me, or worse yet, glared.

And for a long time, I felt pain when I was not invited to that movie or that party.

What had you said about me that caused such hostility and rejection, I would wonder.

And for a long time, I wanted so badly to be included in that group that now shuns me.

And for a long time, I thought of you and felt pain.

And for a long time, I suffered.

I suffered until a friend said: Who cares?

Who cares that they reject you?
Who cares that you are not included?
Who cares that this friend left your life?

Let her go. Let them go.

Don’t hold such scarcity in your relationships or in your life.

There are true friend for you out there.
There are people who value and cherish you.
There are people who will see the true you and feel bonded and connected to you.

Trust this.

Let go and make room in your heart for the new.

Clear out the old.

Clear it out.
Let it go.

Make room for new friends.
Make room for new love.
Make room for new abundance.
Make room for all the glory that is meant for you.

Let what wants to go, go.
Chase no more.

Open now to the new.

Open to new life.
Open to new friendship.
Open to new love.

And, open to new opportunity.

New life is coming to you.

Make room.
Make room.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Confidence is your key.

A while back, when I was taking meditation classes with my teacher Ellen Tadd, we had a class on finding our key. Ellen explained we each had a key to unlocking our full potential. The key might be self love, or confidence, or full expression, or patience, or emotional balance. The key was that one elevated state or emotion that was most essential for you to work on in this life time. The key is different for each one of us, depending on what we have come to earth to learn and to contribute.

For example: Perhaps for someone who struggles deeply with impatience, then patience might be their key. It is through mastering patience that all other aspects of their life begin to fall into place (i.e. relationships improve, appropriate opportunities begin to fall into place, and more alignment with timing and flow begin to transpire.)

Perhaps for someone who is very shy about speaking up, then full expression becomes their key to fulfillment and contribution. As they learn to express themselves, all aspects of their life begin to come into better alignment.

Today, while I was meditating, I heard the message that confidence is my key. It’s been years since i had that class with Ellen, but I instantly realized that this was the answer to the question that was asked so long ago.

And so today, you might want to ask yourself: What is your key? What is it that you need to cultivate in order to unlock your full potential? What quality is wanting to come forward in you at this time?

You may know your answer instantly, or perhaps, the answer may come to you at some time in the future. Keep asking, and stay open. When the time is right, your key will be revealed.

For now, I’ll leave you with the message that I received in my meditation. Because developing confidence is something that can benefit us all.

Confidence is your key.

Confidence is your key. When you believe that you can do this. You will do it.

You have not, as of yet, truly believed that you were capable of accomplishing that which you came here to accomplish.

As you change and evolve this, and as you begin to truly embody confidence,the opportunities set before you will begin to show up.

Embody confidence now. Feel confident. Fill every cell of your body with confidence.

Know that you can do what you’ve come here to do.

Give thanks for your growing confidence and belief in yourself.

Work daily to cultivate a greater confidence. It is your key to success.

Embody confidence though you have no proof.
Embody confidence and see what shows up.
Embody confidence and seek to emanate confidence.

See yourself as capable and your capacities will grow.
See yourself as able to learn that which you came here to learn.
See yourself as able to contribute that which you came here to contribute.

Go forward with confidence now.

Let this be your experiment.
Let this be your test.

What happens as you begin to hold the energy of confidence more and more?

What clarity arises in you?
What opportunities naturally come your way?
What new actions flow from you effortlessly?

Make today, this week, this month, this new year an experiement with confidence.

Learn to face your challenges with confidence.

Know that there is a force of life working with you to manifest what you need.
Know that you yourself are far more capable than you give yourself credit for.
Know that you are more powerful than you currently realize.
Know that you have more wisdom than your currently acknowledge.
Know that confidence is your key.

Cultivate confidence now and the way forward will be revealed.

Be confident in your own inherent wisdom, strength, clarity, and life purpose. And know, that powerful energies are all around you, just waiting for you to step into your confidence and power.

We wait patiently.

The ball is in your court.

Cultivate your confidence and doors will start to open.

What do you say to yourself when you look in the mirror?

This week at work, I had three different clients tell me their rituals when they looked at themselves in the mirror. (All this was completely unprovoked by me.)

Client number one talked about how she and a friend had developed this “joke” between them of looking in the mirror and saying: “Damn, I am a beautiful woman.” Or, “Damn, you look good!” She said it started out as just a silly antic between girl friends but it is a habit that she continued for over thirty years. Now this woman is a truly beautiful woman (both inside and out). She said that at first looking in the mirror and repeating this phrase, made her laugh, but now she totally believes what she had been telling herself and has watched herself transform over the years into the beautiful woman that she wanted to be.

Client number two was struggling with feeling lonely and being, “in between chapters” in her life. She decided that for once she was going to be her own best friend. She started looking in the mirror and saying: “I love you. I really, really love you. I am your best friend. The mantra: “I love you. I love you. I love you.” became the phrase that she repeated to herself when in front of her mirror and when going through her day. This client has been doing this for close to a year now, and in that time I have watched her transform into a glowing, loving woman who truly cares for herself and others. She has softened and simoltaneaouly grown in her confidence and self assurance. She is a new person and isn’t lonely anymore either.

Client number three is a healer, and said that a couple of months back she became tired of all of her “striving” to keep her healing practice going and she decided to start looking at herself in the mirror and say: I am a gifted healer. All who can benefit from my services find their way to me now. I am a gifted healer. All who can benefit from my services find their way to me now.” She said, this morning ritual really increased her feelings of confidence and interestingly her healing practice is quite busy at the moment as well.

In yet a fourth example from the week, I was watching the Tony Robbins documentary called, I Am Not Your Guru (available on Netflix, btw.) In the documentary he talked about how he became determined to make a difference in peoples lives and would go on his morning runs and the whole way would be saying to himself: “I am f**king unstoppable! I am f**king unstoppable. He would also practice really embodying and feeling what he was saying. He went on, through much effort and determination, to build an entire industry around helping others.

All four of these people had one thing in common. They decided to start retraining their minds. They felt one thing, and started saying the opposite as a way to elevate their state and change their way of being in their lives.

The thing is, we don’t even have to start off believing what we say. We can retrain the mind, just like we can retrain the body. But it takes repetition and vigilance. Through continual repetition of a chosen phrase, as well as practicing feeling the words we are saying as if they were already true, we can start to change the thought patterns in our brain.

Now, this takes vigilance and patience for the brain does not always like when we try to change it. Much the same way that our body doesn’t always want to exercise when we have become out of shape. But if we continue to repeat these positive phrases, and practice embodying a new attitude as if it is already here, then little by little they begin to take hold and we begin to change.

I felt re-inspired this week by my clients and their stories and began asking myself: What do I say to myself when I look in the mirror? What am I saying to myself as I go through my day? In what way could I elevate my state? What could I say differently that would leave me inspiried? How might my life change if I started to eminate a new vibration? What new actions might I take? What new opportunites might simply find their way to me as I shift and change my way of being? What miracles might transpire?

And so we all could ask ourselves: What do I currently say to myself when I look in the mirror? And what new attitude would I like to cultivate? Would you like greater self love? Greater confidence? Greater creativity? Greater freedom?

As for myself, for now I resonate with: I am a gifted healer and all who can benefit from my services find their way to me. But then again, I also like: I am love and love is all around me. And, I love you. I love you. I love you. Or, simply: I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I tend to like variety, and so maybe, I’ll have two or three affirmations, just to keep it interesting.

So, we can all become more aware of what we are saying to ourselves when we look at the mirror and go through our day. If what we are saying to ourselves isn’t helping us or uplifting us then we can each come up with something empowering and uplifting to say to as we brush our teeth, wash our face, put on makeup, shave or just pass a random mirror. Be aware of how this impacts the quality of your life over time.

Feel free to let me know what phrase you are going to work on, I’d love to hear from you!

P.S. Here is a Tony Robbins affirmation on abundance that I stumbled across last night. Thought I’d share it here,

God’s wealth is circulating in my life. His wealth flows to me in avalanches of abundance. All my needs, desires and goals are met instantaneously because I am one with God, and God is everything.

God’s wealth is circulating in my life. His wealth flows to me in avalanches of abundance. All my needs, desires and goals are met instantaneously because I am one with God, and God is everything.

God’s wealth is circulating in my life. His wealth flows to me in avalanches of abundance. All my needs, desires and goals are met instantaneously because I am one with God, and God is everything.

I am open and I stand in my conviction.

We had a really nice meditation class this past Thursday. The topic was standing in your convictions and being open, all at the same time. My understanding is that if you are only in your convictions you will become rigid and if you are only open you will be like a leaf in the wind. And so, ultimately we want to blend the two so that we are strong in our convictions, while simeoutaneously being as open as we can. From this blend of conviction and openness, a natural knowing as to how to navigate the complexity of our lives comes into sharper view.

For example, I meditated on a challenging relationship that I have with a colleague and from the balance of openness and conviction I was able to see that this colleague was having a hard time and was out of balance right now. From that awareness came a natural compassion along with an understanding that it was best to step back and stay out of harms way for a while.

I wrote a short meditation on the subject of openness and conviction and thought I’d share some of it here. If you would like to explore these and other topics (such as opening the heart, stepping into wisdom, building confidence, or coupling deep listening with full expression) feel free to stop by our Thursday night meditation class. The class is drop in, is $25.00/class and is open to the public and is held at 800 Main Street in Amherst (middle door in the front of the building.)

Its an engaging and interesting class that we deepen your meditation abilities and your abilities to listen deeply, as well as provide real tools that can help all us of to navigate the complexities of every day life. I look forward to seeing you at our group! If you have any questions, feel free to email or call me!

Openness and Conviction

I am open.
I am open.
I am open.

I am open to healing.
I am open to the light.
I am open to new opportunities.
I am open to a new point of view.
I am open to seeing things differently.
I am open to positive change.
I am open to new adventures.
I am open to new people.
I am open to new friendships.
I am open to love.

I am open.
I am open.
I am open.

Pause and see how being open feels.

Affirm:

I am open.
I am open.

I am open to divine guidance.
I am open to divine assistance.
I am open to newness.
I am open to new opportunities flooding my life.
I am open and my openness draws new opportunities to me.
I am as open as I can be.

I am open.
I am open.

Pause again and see how open you can be.

And now this time affirm:

I stand in my conviction.
I stand in my conviction.

I am filled with certainty.
I am strong.
I am powerful.
I am courageous.
I am confident.

I stand in my conviction.
I stand in my conviction.

I know how I feel.
I know what to do.
I know what to say.

I am certain.
I am confident.
I am powerful.
I am strong.
I am courageous.

I stand in my conviction.
I stand in my conviction.

Feel the strength and the power that comes from standing in your convictions.
Let yourself grow stronger as you stand firm and steady in the truth of who you are.

And now this time, lets combine the two.

I stand in my conviction and I am open.
I stand in my conviction and I am open.
I stand in my conviction and I am open.

See how open you can be as you go through your life.
See how strong and in your conviction you can be.

Put the two together .

Balance your strong conviction with openness and the awareness that everything changes and new insights and opportunities and course changes can come at any moment.
Be strong in who you are but remain open and flexible in the awareness that every moment is new and things are always changing.

Affirm frequently:

I am open and I stand in my conviction.
I am open and I stand in my conviction.
I am open and I stand in my conviction.

As you find this inner balance inside of yourself, a natural clarity and knowing about how to best navigate the complexity of every day life will arise.

Hayley Mermelstein
c.2016

Accepting the apology that you never received.

“Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got.”~ Robert Brault

I had a dream a few nights back about a friend whom I had a falling out with several years ago. In the dream, I went to her with the hopes of receiving an apology for all that had transpired between us (I had already apologized for my part of our falling out.). I was ready to let go and forgive and move on. The only thing I needed was her to apologize and own her part, and then I could finally be free. In the dream she acted as if nothing had ever happened between us and seemed oblivious to my pain. In the dream I started to cry and actually started begging her to see my suffering and apologize. She looked past me and started talking about something inconsequential.

I awoke knowing that I would never get the apology that I desired.

What is a poor soul to do?

As I have reflected on this dream and this relationship, I realized that I had given my power away. I wanted resolve, I wanted healing, I wanted to forgive and move on. I didn’t want to damage my body with anger or hurt or feelings of betrayal anymore. But in order to be free I had constructed a scenario where I needed an apology from someone who was never particularly good at being sensitive to my feelings.

I realized that “needing” an apology to feel complete or resolved was, in a sense, putting my freedom into someone else’s hands. “If they apologize, then I can fully forgive and move on. If they apologize, I can find the resolve I am looking for. If they acknowledge my pain, I can be free.”

In my moment of awakening (literally) I realized that I could take my power back. I realized that my friend’s process was really her business. My process was my business. And so I decided to take my power back and give myself full permission to forgive, let go, and find the resolve that I desired. I decided to accept the apology that I never received.

And then I wrote the following affirmation to assist me in this process:

I forgive you.

I forgive you.
I forgive you.

You are good and you are learning and
You are flawed, just like everyone is flawed.

You are human and you are learning, and you are spirit and you are filled with greatness.

You have strengths and you have weaknesses.

I acknowledge your strengths and your gifts, and I forgive your flaws.

You are learning and growing just like everyone else.

I forgive you.
I forgive you.

In forgiving you, I set myself free.
In forgiving you, I free myself from my pain.
In forgiving you, my body is healed and I am made whole.

I forgive you, and I am free and you are free.

I forgive you and I thank you for teaching me what you came to teach me.
I forgive you and I thank you for teaching me not to be so naïve in relationship.

I forgive you and I thank you for teaching me to not make my healing contingent on something outside of myself.

I forgive you and I thank you for teaching me to step into my full power and stop playing the victim.

I forgive you and I thank you for the friendship shared and the lessons learned.

I forgive you and I set you free.
I forgive you and I set myself free.

May you find peace and
May I find peace.

The earth is a school.
We have come for growth and we have come for learning and we have come for enjoyment and for service.

May I grow and learn and may you grow and learn.
May healing come to both of us.

A plate of forgiveness, understanding and compassion all around.

I accept your apology.
I am whole and complete now.

And, I forgive myself too.

I forgive myself for my mistakes.
I forgive myself for my flaws.
I forgive myself for the times I was insensitive or out of alignment or out of balance.

I forgive you and I forgive myself.

Our union was a karmic one filled with joy, and learning, and love, and pain.

I forgive.
I forgive.

I forgive and I understand.
I forgive and I understand.
I forgive and I understand.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Have a good weekend everyone and if you feel inspired, join us for our Free Tong Ren Chakra Balancing Teleclass Sunday August 7th. The call in number is: 413-259-8048. I look forward to joining you on the call!

All the experts disagree.

There are those that insist that if you are to be a true writer you must write everyday.

And then there are those who insist that if you are to be a true writer you must wait until the spirit moves you.

And there are those that insist that you must not eat meat.
And there are those that insist that you must eat meat if you are to be healthy.

There are those that insist that you must say yes and
There are those that insist that you must say no.

There are studies that prove this.
And studies that say this is absolutely not so.

In the end we must learn to quiet all the external voices and opinions so that we may hear the small, still, quiet voice within that is always guiding us.

All the experts disagree.
What is gospel one minute is heresy the next.

Take in the opinions of others, but in the end do what resonates with your own inner being.

Take full responsibility for your life and do not be overly influenced by the opinions of others, even experts.

Come to know yourself and come to listen to your own inner spirit which has a wisdom that can guide you.

Listen deeply and the way will be revealed.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I was scared and now I’m brave.

I was at a family reunion and playing with my three and a half year old niece in the outdoor pool. For my niece, playing in the pool means standing on the first step and staying there. She wants to go in the water and play, but she is afraid of the water and so it is on the first step that we stay.

On this particular day, she suddenly, while holding my hands of course, jumped to the second stair and said look Hayley I’m 2 years old. (Her disappearing legs made her feel shorter, thus younger.) She eyed the third step and before long she jumped onto the third step crying out: Look Hayley I’m 1 years old. (The water now up to her belly). Then she eyed the fourth and final step and quickly jumped back to the first step. She stayed there for a while but then the game started again. This time she went all the way down to the fourth step which fully immersed her body in the water, leaving just her head and neck sticking out. She yelled out: Look Hayley: I’m zero years old. Then she looked at me and cried out with great enthusiasm: Hayley, I used to be scared and now I’m brave. I used to be so scared and now I’m brave.

Her words echoed in my head and it was as if she was mirroring a process I was still in the middle of. It almost seemed like a voice from beyond was speaking through my niece and saying: Hayley, face your fears. Find your bravery.

For you see, I, like all of us, have been dealing with my own fears.

As I sat at the waters edge, holding the hands of my three year old niece, I begin to ponder: How do we move from fear to bravery?

And while I’m no expert at this (and am definitely a work in progress), I’ve been noticing lately that when I remember the power that lies within me, the power of my spirit, this helps me feel strong enough to begin to face my fears.

As my various fears and concerns arise I begin to remind myself that:

I am filled with the power of spirit.

I am powerful.

I am strong.

I am well able.

I am powerful and powerful beings of light are all around me and I never work alone.

I may repeat one or two of the above affirmations all day long, while driving my car, in the pause between events, and/or while doing my day to day activities.

As the various fears arise or as doubts enter my brain, I may repeat the following affirmation as well:

I am powerful.
I am powerful.

There is a place of great power that lies with in me.

I am one with unlimited power.
I am one with unlimited wisdom.
I am one with unlimited abundance.

I expand into my unlimited nature.

I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.

As I work with these affirmations I notice, over time, that the fears start subsiding and a feeling of strength begins to arise in my body. My perceptions often change and I begin to perceive the obstacles before me differently.

Is this an instantaneous process? No.

While sometimes this process may work very quickly, it is more often a process that takes many, many repititions (at least for me!)

Have I mastered this art? No, not yet.

But this process has been really helpful for me in working with my fears and doubts as they arise.

I don’t know if this process will be helpful for you, but thought I’d share it here in case you too, have fears that arise and you are looking for constructive ways to work them.

While the fears may not vanish all at once, I have found that this process helps them to subside and helps me to find my bravery so that I can jump to the next step in the deep waters ahead.

~Hayley Mermelstein
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