Learning to be a warrior

This summer, during sunnier days, my 11 year old niece (who realizes I’m a little different from the rest of the family) asked if I could do a past life regression on her. I said yes, not realizing what was about to transpire.

I had her relax and imagine gold light filling her body. I had her close her eyes and walk down a flight of stairs into a past life.

She walked down the flight of stairs in her minds eye and boom, she was off and running. She started describing her family life from a different time and different place. There were huts and fires and family and a boat. The boat keep coming up.

I continued to walk her through the regression when suddenly she was on the boat and cannons were being shot at the boat that she was on and she was afraid. She said she thought she was at war and cannons were being shot at the boat.

Suddenly, i become afraid.

Shit, I thought to myself, what have I done. I’ve regressed my eleven year old niece into a past life where cannons are being shot at her.

A fear of accidentally traumatizing my beloved niece overcame me.

It’s to late now, i thought to myself. I need to see this through.

So, back to my niece.

She is half hypnotized describing the scene where cannons are being shot at her boat and suddenly everything goes black and she says: i’m not seeing anything anymore. I just feel quiet and peaceful.

There is a long pause.

I ask her if she has died.

She pauses back, and says yes, she has died.

I sit for a moment and then I ask her to stay in this meditative state and ask what was she learning in that life time. I asked her to listen quietly and allow an answer to come to her.

About ten seconds pass. She pauses and says:

I was learning to be a warrior.
I was learning to be strong.

I allow another moment to pass and allow her space to take in the message.

I slowly guide her back.

She opens her eyes, looks right at me and says: That was really cool.

She then promptly runs off to play with the other kids in the water.

I breathe a sigh of relief. She is okay.

By God: She is a warrior.

Can you hear the words beneath the words?

Once I was listening deeply to a friend who was talking about leaving her husband. I was practicing deep listening at the time and was giving all of my attention to this. (i.e. I wasn’t thinking about what I needed to say in response or multitasking or advice giving. I was just listening.)

As my friend talked about leaving her husband I heard a deeper part of her tell me that she would never leave him because of their money situation. I heard the words beneath the words. When I listened in this way, I had access to much more information than I normally would have. It wasn’t subtle. Actually, it felt like a super power. When I focused on really listening, I was amazed at the information that I had access to.

Practice deep listening today. See how deeply you can listen.

What do you hear when you listen in this way? Can you hear the words beneath the words?

Let this be your experiment with life today. Listen to the words beneath the words. YOu may be amazed at what you discover.

Let Your Heart Love Who it Loves

And the universe whispers to me in a quiet moment;

Let yourself love who you love.
Do not close down to protect yourself.

But what if I get hurt? I ask.

Let yourself love who you love.
Let go of your resistance to what is.

But what if I am rejected? I ask.

Let yourself love who you love.
Do not block in ignorance or fear of rejection.

But everyone thinks I am crazy. I reply.

Let yourself love who you love and
Let go of the well meaning but limited opinions of others.

Simply love.
Simply shine.
Simply radiate.

Let yourself love who you love.

Let go of all of your attachments to external form or how things will evolve.

Let all that go and allow yourself to love who you love.

Let your heart shine.
The heart is meant to radiate light and love.

And so let your heart love who it loves and
Work on your own healing

Let your heart love who you love and
Let it be enough.

Let your heart love who you love and
Be at peace.

It is a blessing to be on the planet at the same time as another with whom you have a bond.

Let it be enough and be thankful and
Let your heart love who you love.

Let go of the fear of being hurt.
Let go of the fear of being rejected.
Let go of the fear of not being good enough.
Let go of the voices that say it will never work.

Simply let go and allow the heart to love who it loves.

Let go and do the only work you can do.
Let go and devote yourself to own healing.

Let go and let yourself be who you are.

Let go and be the best you can be.
Let go and offer the contribution that you came to offer.

Let go and let your heart shine and radiate.
Let go and allow your heart to love who it loves.

Let go and be content with what is.
Let go and allow life to unfold.

Let go and be patient.

Everyone is in a healing process.
Let go and be okay with this.

Let go and understand.

Let go and work on your own healing.
Let go and save the only person you can save.

Let go of all resistance to what is.

Let go.
Let go.

Let go and be at peace.

Let go and when the time is right all shall be revealed.
Let go and when the time is right you will unravel into your own knowing.

Let go and allow life to unfold.

Let go and let it be.
Let go and let it be.

Speaking words of wisdom: Let it be.

Let go and let your heart love who it loves.
Let go and let your heart love who it loves.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Big Being of Acceptance

Not sure what happened today but while I was meditating I turned into a big being of acceptance. I mean a really, big, being of acceptance. Like I turned into the whole universe sort of big.

I was mediating and sort of minding my own business when it happened. Well, I guess in the back ground I was thinking about how flawed all of us humans are and that if we are to get along with each other at all we are going to have to accept that each of us is deeply wounded in one way or another. (I was talking to myself, I guess, in the middle of this meditation).

And then it happened. I became big. I became the universe, and I was filled with a deep, deep acceptance and this acceptance filled the whole universe. And then this acceptance went to my parents and filled them with acceptance and I saw that I could fill them with this acceptance and it would help there relationship. And then it went to my flawed friends (we are all flawed) and it filled and soothed them and then it went to my clients and everyone in my universe was filled with acceptance and was soothed.

For a moment in time, I was larger than life, breathing acceptance into all my children.

And then the experience slowly retracted and I was back to myself.

But a little different.

A psychic once told me that I held too high a standard in relationships and that I wanted a perfection that didn’t exist. As I get older, I’m slowly learning that there is no perfect relationship and part of my job is to deeply accept and allow all that is showing up in my world. It’s not my job to change it. It’s my job to accept it and my acceptance acts as a healing balm going out into the world and soothing the masses. My acceptance helps to heal all the imbalances that present in my day.

I’m not sure that I fully understand this yet or can articulate it all that well. But this seems to be part of my New Years message and learning.

As i reflect, these questions come to mind:

How much acceptance can you breath into your universe?

How deeply can you accept all these deeply flawed human beings that show up at your doorstep?

Can you be a soothing balm that helps to heal the fractured masses?

I saw today that acceptance soothes and heals all that it touches.

I don’t want to argue today.

Today, I offer you my deep acceptance. I may do it imperfectly. But I will keep working on it.

The world is in turmoil and on fire.

Perhaps it is our acceptance that starts to turn the tide in a new direction.

What happens when we accept what is unacceptable?

Does the unacceptable get louder or does it begin to calm down?

What happens when we accept what is unacceptable?

Do we become passive or does our lack of reaction create a deep clarity about how to best proceed?

Allow this to be your experiment today, if you feel so inspired.

Breath a deep acceptance into your universe. Accept everything that arises. Welcome all the flawed players in your universe (you don’t have to invite them all to dinner, btw!) Just allow them to be as they are: broken, damaged, wounded, brilliant, insightful, caring, mangled, and clueless, shining clarity, etc..etc.. Let it all be and offer a deep acceptance to all.

Be aware of what shows up differently as you show up differently.

By the way, when I turned into a big being of acceptance today. My acceptance went out to all of you too. I hope you felt it.

Happy New Year.

Warmly,
Hayley Mermelstein