I was sitting in my living room, content with my days work when I received an unexpected phone call. The call was from someone I used to know, and without going into the details, suffice it to say, that the call annoyed me. It really annoyed me. I found myself ruminating with such questions as: Why did he call me? Why is he so insensitive? What is his problem?
To make matters worse, I took the call and accidently revealed more than I intended, which sparked a whole other level of self questioning and annoyance: Why did I pick up the phone? How did I let myself get sucked back in? Why did I take the bait?
And then somewhere in the midst of my turmoil I remembered the quote from Elizabeth Kenny: He who angers you, conquers you.
Ah, yes. I forgot. This is a test. This is a test in not giving your power away. This is a test in remembering the truth of who you are even if those around you don’t see it. This is a test in holding emotional balance. This is a test in not letting them get under your skin. This is a test in compassion. This is a test of kindness. This is a test in valuing yourself and self worth. This is a test in staying steady while dealing with the imbalances that exist within you and all around you. This is a test and only a test.
And so with new resolve, I started again. With new resolve, I remembered the great power that I am. And with new resolve I remembered the truth of who I am and how I want to be in the world.
And then I hear the words:
“These people who annoy us are essential if we are to actualize our best. How can we refine our nature without some resistance, without some challenge? How can we become a good sailor without some storms and inclement weather?
Be strong now in the rememberance of who you truly are. You are a powerful being of light. See the challenges set before you as calls to step into your power more and more. Do not be so discouraged when you stumble. For stumble you will. Many times. The important point is to pick your self up and resolve once again. And each time you will grow in your ability to hold your power. It may take many, many, many repetitions to be able to hold this consistently, and so for now be content with your inconsistency, but continue to aspire daily to connect with the true and powerful being of light that you are.
Again do not be discouraged by the stumbles and falls, they are an expected and necessary part of the path. See each fall as a call to greater power. See each stumble as a sign post of where your blockages lie.
This is a process and not a fast one either. And so be content with progress and be content with practice. This is your practice and this is your test. You will have many opportunities to retake the test and so be patient with yourself and be steadfast in your commitment to bringing forward the best that lies within you.”
Affirm now:
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am growing in ability to hold my power everyday.
I am embodying more of my power everyday.
I expand into the oneness now.
I merge with the all that is.
I expand into the great and infinite power that I am.
I am a powerful being of light.
I am a powerful being of expansion.
I am a powerful being of wisdom and clarity.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am powerful and I see the challenges set before me as my test.
I am powerful and I aspire to hold my power more and more.
This is my focus and this is my aspiration.
I remember the truth of who I am.
I am powerful.
I am wise.
I am infinite and
I am eternal.
I seek to embody my power more and more.
I seek to connect with my infinite nature more and more.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am one with all of life.
I step into my infinite nature now.
I step into the great light that I am.
I step into my light and shine.
I step into my light and shine bright like the sun.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
I am powerful.
Remember to see the challenges set before you as your test and aspire to step into your power. Be gentle with yourself when you fall, but resolve to begin your practice again, this time with greater wisdom and clarity. Eventually all shall be successful.
Have a good weekend everyone.
Sincerely,
Hayley Mermelstein