And I think of you, and I get angry.
I want so much to blame you.

And yet I know better.

I see your wounds.
You’re just a wounded person.

And, deep down I know this is a call for me to look at my own wounds.

What drew me to you?
Why was I attracted to someone unavailable?

What are the blockages to love that need to be healed in me?
How can I heal myself?

And the answer comes…

Let go of your resistance to love
Let go of everything within you that is blocking love.

Open to true love now.
Open to true mutuality.

Open to respect.
Open to being met.

Open to the love that you desire.

Let go of everything that’s blocking you and step into the life that you were meant to lead.

Stop blaming others.
Look at what in you was drawn to this situation.

Heal yourself.
Heal yourself.

Let go of everything in you that is resisting love.
Let go of everything in you that is resisting love.

Let go.
Let go.

Let go of your blockages and open to the love that is meant for you.
Let go of your blockages and open to the love that is meant for you.

You don’t even have to understand your blockages
Simply affirm:

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my conscious resistance and
I let go of my unconccious resistance.

I let go of my blockages.
I let go of my blockages.

I let go of my limited beliefs.
I let go of my limited beliefs.

Let go more and more.

Let go one hundred times a day.
Let go one thousand times a day.

Manifest the love that is right for you by
letting go of all of your resistance to love.

Affirm frequently:

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my conscious resistance.
I let go of my unconscious resistance.

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance.
I let go of my resistance.

I let go of my blockages.
I let go of my blockages.

I let go of my limiting beliefs.
I let go of my limiting beliefs.

Love is my natural state.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go.
I let go.

I let go and:

I open to love.
I open to love.

I let go of my blockages.
I let go of my resistance.

I let go and

I open to love.
I open to love.
I open to love.

I let go and

I open to love.
I open to love.

Let go through out your day.
Let go of all of your resistance to love.

See what shows up differently,
When you show up different.

Surrender now, and step into the love that is meant for you.
Do not dictate who this should be.

Simply release your resistance to love and see what unfolds.
Be open to the love that is meant for you.

Surrender and open.
Surrender and open.

Heal yourself.
Heal yourself.

Stop trying to fix others.

Heal yourself.
Heal yourself.
Heal yourself.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my conscious resistance to love and
I let go of my unconscious resistance to love.

I let go of all of my blockages to love.
Even if I don’t know what they are.

I let go of all my blockages to love now.
I let go of all of my resistance to love.

A hundred times a day, I let of my resistance to love.

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my conscious resistance to love.
I let go of my unconscious resistance to love.

I let go of my limited attitudes about love.
I let go of my limited attitudes about love.

I let go of my blockages to love.
I let go of my blockages to love.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I surrender now.

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I manifest what is meant for me by letting go of my resistance.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I welcome love.
I allow love.
I surrender to love.

Love is my true nature.
All the love I radiate out into the universe comes back to me multiplied.

I let go of my resistance to receiving love and
I let go of my resistance to being love.

Love is my true nature.
Love is my true nature.

I welcome love.
I allow love.
I surrender to love.

I step into the radiant being of light and love that I am.

I am love.
I am love.

I am a radiant being of light and love.
I am a radiant being of light and love.

I am love.
I am love.

All the love I put out into the universe comes back to me multiplied.
I experience love where ever I go.

New loving people are drawn to me now.
I am a being of great love and I am surrounded by love.

I experience love wherever I go.
I experience love wherever I go.

I am love.
I am love.

I give love and
I receive love with ease.

I let go of my resistance to love now.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my resistance to receiving love and
I let go my resistance to being love.

I step into my true nature now.
I step into my beingness.

I am a radiant being of light and love.
I am a radiant being of light and love.

I am love.
I am love.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go of my resistance to receiving love.
I let go of my resistance to being love.

I surrender into my true nature now.

I surrender.
I surrender.

I am a radiant being of light and love.
I am a radiant being of light and love.

All the love I put out into the universe comes back to me multiplied.
All the love I put out into the universe comes back to me multiplied.

I let go of my resistance to love.
I let go of my resistance to love.

I let go.
I let go.

I manifest everything I need by letting go of my resistance.
I manifest everything I need by letting go of my resistance.

I let go.
I let go.
I let go.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of my resistance to what is.
I let go of trying to figure anything out.
I let go of trying to make anything happen.
I let go of control.

I let go.
I let go.

I let go of the feeling of being stuck.
I let go of the feeling of being stuck.

I let go.
I let go.

I experiment with manifesting what i need by letting go.

Letting go of control.
Letting go of resistance.
Letting go of trying to figure it out.
Letting go of trying to make it happen.

I surrender.
I surrender.

I let go and I give spirit the control.
When i let go and give spirit the control
the miraculous can happen.

I am open to the miraculous.
I am open to the miraculous.

Miracles happen everyday.
Miracles happen everyday.

I let go of my resistance to what is.
I let go of trying to control.
I let go of trying to make it happen.
I let go of trying to figure it out.
I let go of feeling stuck.

I let go.
I let go.

When i let go I create space for clarity to arise on its own.
When i let go i create space for right action to arise on its own.
When i let go I create space for divine flow.

I let go of my resistance to what is.
I let go of control.
I let go of trying to figure it out.
I let go of trying to make it happen.

I let go and I allow the universe to move through me.
I let go and I allow divine guidance to assist me.
I let go and I give spirit the control.
I let go and I let God.

I let go.
I let go.
I let go.

~Hayley Mermelstein

These are some affirmations we have been working with lately in both our Monday night group healing and Thursday meditation class. Feel free to contact me for more information about either group happening on zoom!

It’s okay to feel lost sometimes.

It’s okay.
It’s okay.

It’s okay to feel lost sometimes.
Somedays you feel on top of the world.

Invincible.
Strong
Capable

The God force in all its glory.

And somedays you feel lost.
And somedays you feel humble

And somedays you are not sure if you know anything of any use to anybody.

It’s okay to feel lost sometimes.

Some days you are strong.
Some days you are invincible.
Some days you are loving and wise.

And some days you are lost.

Not sure which way is up.
Not sure is divine favor still shines down on you.

I’m not sure why this is.
Perhaps we are all learning humility.

I went to a psychic once who looked at me and said you used to be arrogant, But now you are humble.

Do you understand what I am saying? He asked.

Yes.
Yes, I do. I reply.

Life has humbled me.
Life has brought me to my knees.

And still I forget.
It’s okay to be lost sometimes.

It’s okay.
It’s okay.

Where ever you are at today, it’s okay.

I used to be arrogant.
Now I am humble.

It’s okay.
It’s okay.

It is really okay.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I was walking on the beach about a year before my father died. I was walking and thinking about an interaction I had with him a few days prior. I had asked him if he wanted to go for a walk with me and he said no.

I sort of pushed it a bit:
Come on Dad. Lets go for a walk. I insisted.

Again he said no. Not now. I’m too tired.

(My Dad was an avid walker and he and I had been going on long walks for as long as I could remember)

As I was walking on the beach, reflecting on this interaction, my then, very much alive father, appeared before me in spirit form. (now mind you…this had never happened to me before). Anyway, my father appeared before me in spirit form and began to talk to me.

He said:

Hayley, I have lived a full life and I have completed what I came here to do. I have had the relationships that I was meant to have.

At that point I was shown his long line of relationships: His parents, his brother, my mother, his three kids, his four grandchildren, his friends, etc…etc…

I have had the relationships that I was meant to have. I have completed what I came here to complete. You can help me by letting go and not pulling at me. Let me be. Also, do not interfere with any decisions that your mother will make in the upcoming period of time. Do not argue about flu shots, or medications, or vaccines, or any medical procedures. Sit back. I am preparing to move onto my next chapter. You can help me by letting go and not interfering with the process. Help me to let go by letting go of your attachments to me.

And with that my father’s spirit faded out of sight. And I was left on the beach with the new awareness that my father felt complete here and that I could help him let go by not pulling at him to be the person he once was.

You see my father, who was forever youthful, had aged in the last couple of years and had slowed down quite a bit. I understood that he was winding down his journey but still I had not fully grasped what was happening.

His message to me on that beach was helpful in guiding me about how to be with him. I stopped pushing or pulling and just learned to be with him. I practiced letting go of my attachment to his life here on earth and began to think about having an ongoing relationship even after he left his earthly body.

I am sure I didn’t do this perfectly. Hey, I am human and if I had it my way, no one we loved would pass or go away. But my higher self, of course, understood his message to me and wanted to support him in his journey through space and time and so I practiced loving him and letting him go.

I am still practicing.

My father passed about a year after my walk on the beach. He went relatively quickly and peacefully.

I hope he is enjoying his freedom from the body. I hope that I was supportive to him. I hope I did enough.

I look forward to having another visit from his spirit self when the time is right.
but for now I practice loving him and letting him go.

My father was an explorer and an adventurer at heart. I imagine he is off exploring the great unknown. I hope that he is having a great time.

On a side note my father once asked a group of family members what brought them great joy. His answer to this question was seeming his kids happy. What brings me bittersweet tears of great joy is thinking of my father as truly happy.

Fly free Daddy, and much love.
Fly Free.

~Hayley Mermelstein

I was meditating this morning when these words started echoing in my mind. I had to pause and write them down as they were flying by. Thought I would share them here in case they might speak to you as well.

This is your mission, should you choose to accept it.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it is to become a being of love and compassion while here on earth. You will be challenged. You will be betrayed. You will be lied about. People you love will misunderstand you. People you trust will share your secrets. Lovers will cheat on you. People you give generously to will complain about you and not appreciate the depth of what has been given to them.

This mission is not for the faint of heart. This mission will challenge you to your core. You will feel many, many times like you cannot do it. This mission sounds easy, but it is not.

You will be challenged daily and still if you choose to accept it your mission is to become a being of light and love upon this planet. Think long and hard about this before you decide whether or not to accept this mission.

Of course, you really have no choice. For you will suffer until you fully decide to accept this challenge. For to live in disappointment or grief or pain or victimhood is really no way to live.

And so the challenge is put before you on this day. We suggest that you start small. Start with 10 minutes. Commit the next ten minutes to being a being of light and love and compassion. See if you can hold it for ten minutes and then slowly build from there.

We suggest that you keep in mind that you will be tested. These tests are meant to challenge you. How else will you become a warrior of the light? How else will you become the person that you are meant to become? Do not be naïve about what these challenges will entail. Do not be childlike in this endeavor.

Also be clear and be sure to love yourself through this initiation. For your life here on earth is an initiation. Part of your learning is to learn to fiercely love yourself and be clear about what you will and won’t tolerate in the name of love.

This is not about being a doormat for all who come into your vicinity. No this is about being a warrior of light. This is about being a warrior of love. To become a warrior of the light you will have to be very strong and very clear. It takes great power to be a warrior of love in a world filled with fear, greed, animosity, hatred and poor judgement.

To step into this role you will need to be prepared. You will need to see very clearly. You will need to be able to say yes and you will need to be able to say no. If you cannot say no you will be eaten alive and your ability to be a being of light and love will be highly compromised. If you cannot say no you will in fact fail at your mission here.

Do not succumb to sympathy or over giving. Both are a sign of weakness on your part. Instead, be a being of great compassion. Be fierce in your love and compassion and be fierce in your ability to set limits and to be able to say yes and to say no.

Seek to do the loving thing. The loving thing is not always to please the personalities of those with whom you engage. The loving thing is that which supports the spiritual growth of all those with whom you interact. It is not loving to enable weakness in those you love.

Be wise. Be fierce. Be loving. Be compassionate. Be kind. Be strong. Be powerful. Do the loving thing.

Your path will challenge you and is not for the faint of heart. Step into your high and destined role. Become the messenger of love you are meant to become. Be gentle with yourself because this is not an easy assignment in a world filled with so much imbalance. But also, be fierce and uncompromising. This is why you came to the earth. We suggest you accept your mission and begin today. Become who you are meant to become and you will be satisfied with your journey.

God speed and remember:

You are a warrior of the light in a world filled with imbalance. Carry the torch and remain steadfast in your vision and your assignment. Step into your high and destined role. Step into your power. You are more powerful than you know. Remember your power and this will help you to become the person that you are meant to become.

We are with you. You are never alone.

This is your mission should you choose to accept it. Become the being of light and love and compassion and power that you are meant to become. We promise you, if you can do this, you will be satisfied with your journey.

So often others are afraid of not getting what they need and so they try to manipulate life to give them what they think is right for them or what they deserve.

The only problem is this action shows the underlying belief that You are not going to get what you need.

For today experiment with truly trusting that life is on your side and conspiring in your favor. Let go of all desire to manipulate or control life so that you can get what you need.

When has trying to manipulate life ever worked in the long haul?

Have you noticed that it when you totally let go completely that miracles happen?

Have you noticed it is when you stop trying to make it happen, force it to happen, beg it into happening: that that is when it happens?

So let go of your petty manipulations.
Let go of your desire to control.

Let go of that part of you that thinks your mortal self is running this show.
You have no control. It is an illusion.

Show your trust in life by letting go of the desire to control it.
Surrender to life.

The universe has a much bigger and brighter plan for your life than you can possibly imagine.

The limited mind has no idea of what the unlimited mind is capable of.

And so surrender your deepest desires.
Surrender your deepest dreams.

Give spirit the control.
When you give spirit the control the miraclulous can happen.

Put your desire out into the universe.
But do not dictate from whom or where it will come.

For example: if it is more money you desire, put that desire out to the universe. Embody the feeling as if it is here. Embody the feeling of having received it. But do not dictate from whom or where it should come. Let the unknown surprise you. Let go and let the universe bring to you all that you need. This is a supreme letting go, a supreme trust.

Do not be rash.
Listen deeply to the forces that are guiding you.

See how deeply and profoundly you can let go of your desire to manipulate life.

Stop looking for an outcome.
Stop trying to predict from where it will come.

Let the good Lord surprise you.

And surprised you will be.

Let go of the desire to control.
Let go of the desire to manipulate .

Let go and know that all that is right to you will come.

If there is action to be taken, you will know.
You will be guided.

Let go profoundly and completely and
Let the magic begin.

~Hayley Mermelstein

Thinking about letting go and surrendering as I sit on my hotel deck in Florida overlooking the ocean. Thinking of Lester Levenson and Joe Dispenza too. Appreciate everything I’ve learned in the last few years….

I let go of trying to make anything happen.

What would happen if I just let go?

Would the world end?
Would the world come crashing down?
Would the forces that be give up on me?

What would happen if I just let go?

What synchronicities might find their way to me if I just surrendered and put it in Gods hands.

What synchronicities might happen if I got out of the way.

Don’t be small minded.
Stop trying to figure it out with your mortal mind.

Let go I say.
Let go of trying to make anything happen.

Let go and allow life to unfold.
Let go and trust.

Stop trying to control anything.
Stop trying to make anything happen.

Let go.
Let go.

Let go and you will be guided.
Let go and you will unleash the magic of the universe.
Let go and you will unleash syncronicity.
Let go and all that is meant to you will come to you in its own time.

Let go in a profound way.

Let go of trying to make anything happen.
Let go of trying to figure anything out.

Let to and allow.
Let go and allow.

Magic happens when you let go.
Let this be your experiment with life.

Stop trying to make anything happen.

Stop looking for it.
Stop anticipating it.

A profound letting go.

What magic happens when you let go?
What magic unfolds when you surrender?

What syncronicities might find their way to you.

Let this be your experiment today.
Stop trying to make anything happen.

Let go.
Let go.

From now on, manifest everything you need by letting go.
Put it in Gods hands.

Let go in a profound way.
The key to manifestation is to let go.

Let go and trust.
Let go and allow.

Let go and see what unfolds when you are out of the way, and not trying to manipulate life to get your needs met.

Let go.
Let go.

Let this be your grand experiment with life today.

Let go of trying to make anything happen.

Be the queen or the king.
Let what is meant for you come in its own time.

No graveling.
No begging.

No manipulating life.

A profound trust.
A profound allowing.
A profound surrender.

Let go.
Let go.

Let go and you will be guided.
Let go and all you need will come to you.
Let go and when the time is right, you will know what to do.

Let go of trying to figure anything out.
Let go of trying to make anything happen.

Let go and give the universe the reins.
Let go and be at peace.

What is meant for you will come to you.
Let go and trust.

Let go and trust.
Let go and trust.

~Hayley Mermelstein

What if whatever is transpiring in your life right now, no matter how painful, if deeply important to helping you become the person that you are meant to become?

Can you surrender to it?
Can you accept it?

Can you allow it?
Can you just be with your pain?

What if this pain is transforming you into the person that you are meant to become?

Be with it all.
Welcome it all.

Resist nothing.

Be with your pain and let it burn away all that needs to be transformed within you.

Be with your pain and let it consume you.

Be with your pain and let it soften your sharp edges.
Be with your pain and let it burn away your arrogance.
Be with your pain and let it transform you into the person that you are meant to become.

Don’t try to get rid of your pain.

It is here to heal you.

Me, you.
Us, them.
Right,wrong.

You are selfish.
No, you are selfish.

Black, white.
Pink, purple.

Who is right?
Who is wrong?

Who is the sheep?
Who is the wise one?

In the words of Rumi:

Out beyond right and wrong there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

Fight among yourselves.
Bicker some more.

They want us fighting.
They want us mad.

Stir the pot.
Stir some more.

When does it stop?

When you decide.
One person at a time.

Step out of the battle.
Put down the sword.

Surrender at last.

Can I live these words?
I don’t know?

This is not a fighting song.

Step into your power.
Lead the way.

Put down the sword.

I’ll go first.
I’ll go first.

~Hayley Mermelstein