I was at a party the other day and someone asked me a question about a mutual friend. I answered their question and then realized that I had said too much. It wasn’t a terribly big deal but still I felt badly. It was an honest mistake, but still a mistake nonetheless. If I had been more prepared for the question I would have said less.

I was thinking about this when I got home and felt badly about it. Again, it wasn’t the end of the world and in a sense I was being sort of hard on myself. I just said a little too much.

Anyway, in my time of feeling badly, a critical voice that I didn’t know was in me arose and said with great venom: “You don’t deserve goodness.”

What, I answered back, that is kind of a strong reaction isn’t it? (Trying to rationalize with my irritational self.) Yes, but still, you don’t deserve, it echoed back.

I felt, in that moment, that a part of my unconscious mind was revealing itself to me. Sort of rearing its ugly head in a moment of vulnerability.

I’m glad, however, that this happened.

They say that 90 percent of our mind is unconscious. Consciously, i would say I totally hold the attitude that I deserve, but clearly their was this voice deep within me that felt otherwise.

Its important to be aware of these unconscious voices in our heads because they affect our lives and our manifestation. What goodness might I be blocking because I have this hidden voice saying that I don’t deserve?

Once these voices come to the surface we can begin to work with them using affirmations, prayer, Tong Ren Chakra Balancing or other healing techniques.

For me, I wrote the following affirmation for myself and thought I’d share it here in case, from time to time, there is a voice within you that rises up to try to hold you down.

Here is to our collective liberation!

I deserve.

I deserve.
I deserve.

I deserve the goodness of the universe.
I deserve the goodness of the universe.

I deserve wealth.
I deserve love.
I deserve prosperity.
I deserve kindness.

I deserve.
I deserve.

I deserve and I am open to receive.
I deserve and I am open to receive.

I am open to receive the goodness of this universe.
I am open to receive the goodness of this universe.

We have all made mistakes.
No one is exempt.

We have all made mistakes and yet we still deserve.

So quiet that voice within that says I do not deserve.
Heal that voice within that blocks the goodness of the universe.

I heal that voice within and I open to receive.
I heal that voice within and I devote myself to service.

I open to the goodness of the universe.
I open to the goodness of the universe.

I open to greater power.
I open to greater love.
I open to great wealth.
I open to greater abundance.
I open to greater kindness.

I am a child of God and I deserve.
We all deserve healing.

Take a moment now and open to the goodness of the universe.

Open to a force of life that has your best interest at heart.
Open to a force of life that wants to bring you all that you need to heal.

Heal the voice within that says I don’t deserve.
Heal the voice within that blocks this goodness.

Know that you spirit and that you are good and
Know that everyone makes mistakes.

Be kind to yourself and open.
Be open and allow yourself to heal.

If there is a place within you that you are having trouble healing, ask for divine intervention now.

Help me spirit to know that I deserve the goodness of the universe.

Help me to heal the voice within me that says I do not deserve.

Help me to be open to your goodness more and more.

Affirm:

I am healing.
I am whole.
I am complete
I am a child of God and
I deserve.

~Hayley Mermelstein
c.2015

Reread this affirmation and meditation frequently.

Have a good weekend everyone and remember that
regardless of the mistakes that we have made, we all deserve healing.

Sincerely,

Hayley Mermelstein