I spent the day this past Sunday out in the sun and the water with a close friend and her children. I went to bed feeling content and satisfied. At exactly 2:00 a.m. I awoke out of a dead sleep with one loud thought looming over me. The thought was “WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE WRITING ABOUT THE SPIRITUAL PRINCIPLES? The thought did not come as a friendly sort of question. No, it came as a sarcastic, cutting kind of thought….at 2:00 a.m. none the less, when i was at my lowest ability to guard myself against it. I answered back, “I’m tired, go away, I need sleep.” Fortunately, I was able to turn over and fall back asleep but when I awoke the next morning the thought reappeared. “Who are you to write about the spiritual principles? Are you such an expert at living life?” I sat with these not so friendly questions and started to feel insecure. Who am I to write like I do? I really am no expert on human living. There are many who seem to do a better job of it than I, after all. And yet, at the same time, I reasoned with myself, I do like to write. I really like to write. I really don’t even care if I’m particularly good at it or even if I get a lot of approval around it. (a little approval is nice…I have to admit!) It’s my creative expression, I said to myself. As I thought about this more I remembered a turning point for me that occurred in a class I took while I attended Integrative Nutrition in New York City. The guest speaker posed a question to the large group. The question was: “If I didn’t have to do it perfectly I would…….?” She asked the same question 5 times. Each time we were instructed to write down our answer. “If I didn’t have to do it perfectly I would? If I didn’t have to do it perfectly I would? If I didn’t have to do it perfectly I would? I remember my first answer very vividly which was I would produce guided meditation cd’s. I don’t remember the other answers at this moment but that first one was the one that stood out. Ever since that time when a meditation descends upon me (that is often how it feels) I write them down. It felt a little lonely just collecting them on my computer (about 80 or 90 so far) so I decided to start to share them with all of you. I’ve even recorded a couple. My guided meditation calledChakra Balancing is available as a cd or mp3 download and the gold light series is available as an mp3. I’ve heard back from clients and friends that the cds have really helped them.
The question: What would you do if you didn’t have to do it perfectly, is a good question to ask yourself from time to time. None of us are perfect and ironically we often wind up teaching what it is that we most need to learn. So take a chance. Dare to write or dare to create or dare to start that project you’ve been thinking about but not sure if you were good enough. If we all waited until we were perfect to start we’d all be waiting along time.
Just be prepared for that 2:00 a.m. voice that may wake you from time to time. Tell it its late and to go away. With any luck…it will.
Also don’t miss our Tong Ren Chakra Balancing training weekend. When you tap on a doll for healing and the person you are working with feels energy coursing through their body and the pain they were having suddenly disappears they will think you are really cool. Well cool and a little freeky! It’s a great way to get attention.
Of course, you just may learn a technique where you can significantly help somebody as well.
For more information about our weekend workshop you can check out the website: www.trcbhealing.com